My body is harsh and unforgiving, I do not understand it, it does not speak to me.
Oubliette
No bones - liquid gold - forming and re - forming - clinging
suspension
trying to force my body to slow down
control
disengage
turn off the alarm
float
umbilicus, connection, remembering, memories of the womb, asymmetry, embryonic, viscous
supine / prone
closed eye / artificial eye
falling down / staying focused
feeling out of body
heart beating like a bird
afraid
still
no-one is watching
eyes fixed
transfixed
leaving
rising
blood moving
exploding
tasting death
